Butterfly fly away

I wanted to post this tomorrow but since I won't have time to do so I decided to do it today, one day earlier.

19.9.2014. That was the day when my whole life changed. I quit my job in Elisa, packed everything I got into one big suitcase, left my life in Finland behind me and moved to Cyprus.

I cannot believe it has already been four years. I'm so proud of my 21 year old self for being able to do something that big and life changing. Back then tho everything was so much different. I never thought my life would be like this what it is now. I was in a relationship, which I thought would last for lifetime. I was so naive and in love. I never thought four years later I would be single, living by myself with a cat. I used to hate cats and look at me now, I've turned into a cat lady.  

I'm so proud of myself tho, I have a job that I love, my studies are going rather well and hopefully in two years I will graduate, I have a nice car and good people around me. I've actually grown up and my life view has completely changed over these years. I've learnt about so many different cultures and how to deal with different kind of people.

Am I happier here than I was in Finland? Hell yeah. I cannot say I am completely happy tho. I still got lot of things I need to work on but I am slowly getting there. Hopefully. I do have days when I feel alone and sad, few times I've almost given up and though about going back home but then I've realized that I wouldn't be happier there. Yes I do miss my best friend and my family, but other than that Finland has nothing more to offer me. I am not saying I would never go back, but at this point, Cyprus is where I belong to.

During these four years I've met a lot of new people. From shy and reserved girl I've turned into social one (ok who am I kidding I am still quite shy) who don't give a sh*t what other people say or think.  I am so grateful for my friends, I don't know if I could have done all this without them. Specially my other half who completes my half Finnish half Cypriot roots, thank you so much for being always there for me, even during periods when I wasn't so lovable haha!   

I hope four years from now I have finally found my happiness. I hope have finished my studies and have a job as an accountant or auditor. I hope I will find the right person to share my life with. 

I hope this wasn't too deep again, but I thought I want to share my thoughts and feelings. Life is not always bed of roses and I don't want to pretend or say my life is.

With love,
Stella xxx

Lost Lamb

Hola blog!

Maybe I should just give up with this blog 😅 I just can't seem to get into the routine to update this regularly. I doubt that I even have any readers left anymore haha but it's cool. 

So what's been going on with me then? These past 6 months have been pretty crazy for me. I've had my family and relatives visiting me, studied loads, worked, spent some quality time with my close ones and just enjoyed life. 

I'm not gonna lie, end of winter / beginning of spring time was really hard for me, mentally. There was times when I felt like giving up on everything and going back to Finland. But thank god I have amazing people around me who helped me to get through it all. I still can't say I'm 100% okay, but I will be. I'm working hard on it. The thing is, if you try to push away all the feelings you have, at some point the reality hits you and you are forced to just stop and think about everything, you need to go through all the stuff you tried so hard not to think about. The past 2 years I've tried to convince myself everything was good, I'm happier now. And I kind of am, but then the reality hit me and I realized that I'm still broken. I am getting better tho, my self confident is finally coming back.  

First my aunt and her husband came here for one week in April. I went to Protaras to meet up with them, I honestly fell in love with that place (I will do separate post about Protaras and travelling in Cyprus I think). I honestly can't believe I've lived in Cyprus nearly 4 years and there are still so many places I need to visit. People are actually paying thousands to come here and then there's me, who has everything within 1 hour drive and I haven't taken advantage of it.  

Beginning of May my dad and brother came here as well. I can't even describe how happy I was to see them. It had been 1.5 years since I last saw my brother, so spending 10 days with him was really nice.  

My studies are going pretty good as well. I'm so proud of myself that I still have the energy and will to study. It is very stressful, and I had few breakouts before my exam on Monday, but I know that when I will finish with the ACCA it will all be worth it. I'm doing this all for me and for better future.  I still have one more class to take and then after that I can finally start doing the assignments for my bachelor!!  

Anw because I think no one even read this all the way here I will stop now. This was just kind of update how have I been lately post.   

I'm going tomorrow to try this Velasmooth treatment for cellulite. I will be doing review on this how well it works and if its worth of trying, so ladies, stay  tuned! 

- Stella xoxo 

New beginning

Hello everybody!
I am so sorry that I haven't been posting in a while, but I have been just sooo busy with everything! But I got really exciting news to share with you guys ( most of you already know!) BUT i have FINALLY moved to Cyprus!! It was about time! I came here last Friday and ohh god it's been great here! I am looking for a job here (khmmmm if anyone knows any jobs from Limassol please do let me know ;p ). January hopefully I can finally start my studies and next week I am going to one possible school to check things out! :) 
Now that I finally got some time, I will be posting more often. Although I might have a little break again in two weeks when my family comes here on holiday! But besides that I will start posting more often and I do have few posts in my mind already :) !
Anyways, I just wanted to let you guys know that Im still here, heh! Here is a few picture, enjoy! ;) 

Love, stella