Butterfly fly away

I wanted to post this tomorrow but since I won't have time to do so I decided to do it today, one day earlier.

19.9.2014. That was the day when my whole life changed. I quit my job in Elisa, packed everything I got into one big suitcase, left my life in Finland behind me and moved to Cyprus.

I cannot believe it has already been four years. I'm so proud of my 21 year old self for being able to do something that big and life changing. Back then tho everything was so much different. I never thought my life would be like this what it is now. I was in a relationship, which I thought would last for lifetime. I was so naive and in love. I never thought four years later I would be single, living by myself with a cat. I used to hate cats and look at me now, I've turned into a cat lady.  

I'm so proud of myself tho, I have a job that I love, my studies are going rather well and hopefully in two years I will graduate, I have a nice car and good people around me. I've actually grown up and my life view has completely changed over these years. I've learnt about so many different cultures and how to deal with different kind of people.

Am I happier here than I was in Finland? Hell yeah. I cannot say I am completely happy tho. I still got lot of things I need to work on but I am slowly getting there. Hopefully. I do have days when I feel alone and sad, few times I've almost given up and though about going back home but then I've realized that I wouldn't be happier there. Yes I do miss my best friend and my family, but other than that Finland has nothing more to offer me. I am not saying I would never go back, but at this point, Cyprus is where I belong to.

During these four years I've met a lot of new people. From shy and reserved girl I've turned into social one (ok who am I kidding I am still quite shy) who don't give a sh*t what other people say or think.  I am so grateful for my friends, I don't know if I could have done all this without them. Specially my other half who completes my half Finnish half Cypriot roots, thank you so much for being always there for me, even during periods when I wasn't so lovable haha!   

I hope four years from now I have finally found my happiness. I hope have finished my studies and have a job as an accountant or auditor. I hope I will find the right person to share my life with. 

I hope this wasn't too deep again, but I thought I want to share my thoughts and feelings. Life is not always bed of roses and I don't want to pretend or say my life is.

With love,
Stella xxx